11.21.2009

Getting Better, I think

The time since my last post has been crazy, but productive in terms of my recovery. I've got a psychiatrist and psychologist I'm seeing regularly, both o whom were very highly recommended. I've been diagnosed with PTSD, General Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder - Recurring, and Social Phobia. I'm also on an anti-depressant. Zoloft, to be exact.

I have to admit that at first I wasn't too thrilled with the idea of taking anti-depressants. I felt that I shouldn't have to rely on a medication to feel normal or at ease. I thought my need to be "normal" was all in my head, and it was all in my head, so to speak. I guess my experiences reprogrammed me biochemically as well as psychologically.

But now, I can't imagine going without the meds. I can sleep, my mood is much more even-keeled, and I don't feel as self-conscious as before.

I still have a long way to go, but I think I'm off to a decent start.